Tuesday, 10 November 2015

Your presence is essential.

Rage spits unfiltered
eyes brim with fire
harsh accusations condem
attacks upon identity
hatred flares up
ugly words released
lunging violently
threats yelled
degradation muttered 
separately they walk off 

Jesus your presence is so essential
You are Peace
You are Healing
You are Restoration
You are New Life
You are Hope
You are Redemption
You are Forgiveness
You are Reconciliation






Tuesday, 3 November 2015

The tiniest gate

Her usual stance is harsh and hardened
features full of a fiery irritation
eyes that skitter back and forth
a wall massive built high around her
speech steeped in sarcasm, doubt, discomfort
I approach with my guard up
prepared and ready
she stands defeated, shoulders slumped
eyes holding back tears, hurt
her wall for a moment seems to open the tiniest gate
her words share with vulnerability, shame, ugly reality
she allows for the moment to be truly seen
her act leaves
hurting heart, exposed
wordy confusion revealed
processing cycles and struggles
lost and answerless mindset



Thursday, 29 October 2015

The aches of love

Rain pelts down, drenching pavement, pooling grass
inviting a certain cozy warmth heightening desire to hold hot coffee
mug between palms, snuggling up
suddenly the contentedness is replaced with chaos
the atmosphere changes
faces worried, scattered, anxious
there is an urgency
hearts drop as needs are communicated
troubling situations made known
responses come together
level of calmness must manifest as to settle others
eyes full of searching, gentle words bringing tears
hugs that sink in weakness
shattered worth of another
exhaustion defeating
pain, hurt, trauma coloring the moment
struggle aches each one who loves








Tuesday, 20 October 2015

Surreal survivors

Frayed, ripped jeans, knees clutched with arms to body
sitting, nearly being swallowed by hat and coat as she shivers
I ask to sit, barley hearing voice as it's spoken just above a whisper
 sweet, innocent face intently peering at mine as we speak
I learn her story as she shares carefully
 articulating very slowly, leading me to hang on her every word
with each sentence her chin quavers, allowing herself a fully honest moment
 to tear up and be openly sad
we sit together in the sad, in the alone feeling
for a heavy moment I get to experience life through her eyes
I see the boots and knees of those walking back and forth
I feel the isolation, an awareness of being invisible
depending on loose change and pity of the stranger
knowing a little bed in the dark alleyway awaits
uncertain of when life will begin to get better

:::
With eyes to glowing stones below our feet
we trek into the pitch darkness of the overpass
flashlight in hand calling out into the echo of spray painted concrete
Beholding our friends homes
gathered, collected,set up amongst the messy trash
Out of the stillness two heads pop up from a mattress
sleepy faces, big smiles, kind chatter
sitting up in bed ready to share a box of pizza










Thursday, 15 October 2015

Those sweet and savory moments


Oh that sweetness of sharing a little round table with him
paint brushes in hand
little mugs of coffee
creating beauty across from one another.
Arms a smattering of tattoos
voice of honesty
heart soft and humble
eyes wet with tears,
such strength and endurance to survive.
Savor.
Crisp fall wind
her beauty
clutching a plastic bag of bread
ready to feed the birds.
Bundled up
tiny legs crossed in her wheelchair
open arms ready to hug and kiss my cheek
carrying warmth
Savor.
Eyes crinkled at the edges in sweet gazes
sharing joy sparking life
glances of endearment
thick stew.
Words softening hearts
hugs awakening love
sighs speaking of identity
Jesus chats over acrylics 
Savor.
Heads tilted together in giddy laughter
affection spoken in darling phrases
banter
teatimes
sitting in crowds hearing her story
bright smile hemming and hawing bashfully

 Savor.

I am learning to savor the sweet moments in life
My thoughts cloud, rush and worry envelopes, and these pieces of sweet are lost.
My heart becomes weary, my mind overwhelmed, I lose thankful attentiveness.
The gifts are missed, the joys, the tiny details of his lavish love overlooked. 
I am learning to find Jesus presence in the simplicity of the moments, in the here and now.
I am learning to see his image, his heart right in front of me.  
I am learning to be okay with the mystery of it all, to just soak it up and enjoy.



 

Tuesday, 22 September 2015

Your heart so beautiful, your image so unexpected...

Mass of hair placed beneath ball cap
Thick blue liner surrounding bright eyes
red lipstick
little in stature
big in personality
cozying  up in a fresh sweatshirt
looking in my eyes she begins to lavish love upon me
extravagant, unpredictable worth
gentle care for me.
Your heart so beautiful
Your image so unexpected

He straddles a bike slowing to a stop
leaning to one side to speak
that smile, those eyes
tender, compassionate, gracious
peace collects his whole being easily impacting
with genuine expression and thoughtful words
he thanks with humility
Your heart so beautiful
Your image so unexpected

A large christmas tree stands tall in their campsite
fully decorated with a few presents beneath
the humor, the idea, the preparations, the desire to have it there
captivates me
His familiar presence offering joy and deep focus
consideration and beyond sacrificial
Your heart so beautiful
Your image so unexpected

Genesis 1:27 " So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them."




Friday, 18 September 2015

The crushed in spirit...

That sweet young face 
         fear peeking through concrete eyes
       stubborn, tough
 she strives to present herself
     yet still a little girl
        Running from home
    sleeping outside
draped in vulnerability
crushed in spirit
chin tucked into neck
knees propped up
together they ask for money
hood slipped down over eyes
belongings strewn along the corner
cars zooming past merging onto the expressway
silent whispers of exhaustion
defeated, simply sad
honest desperation
 crushed in spirit
Her story clearly spoken
unprotected, violated, neglected
mind recounting details
reflections, realizations, thoughts
haunting memories
 crushed in spirit
I want to have answers I don't
I want to be in control I'm not
I want to fix  hurts and pains I am incapable
I want to have perfect solutions I fall short

"The Lord is close to the broken hearted, he rescues those who are crushed in spirit." 
Psalm 34:18