It's a Battle

" We are passionately loved by the creator of the universe... and Passionately hated by his enemy"


WoW . This is profound and true. I don't think I acknowledge  near enough that I am in a battle. I experienced a very low point yesterday. One of those times when I felt completely weakened by lies, burdened, and unable.

The past few days prior to this, I was experiencing such passion, beauty, wonder and awe. Filled to overflowing from my saviour. confidence in him, trust in him, boldness and excitement in my calling from him, fulfilment in only him. JOY, sunshine, happiness, and passion.

It seemed to happen so quickly. I felt robbed, I wanted to go back, what had changed?  Why was my heart prone to wander from the truth i knew so confidently only a few hours before.  What was going on here? this made no sense? I went to bed last night feeling confused, defeated, weak and weary.

I awoke this morning knowing I needed answers from my father. I sat down with him, and he clearly reminded me. The enemy hates me, despises me. As my father takes me into deeper freedom, as he pours his love on me and that love impacts, changes and transforms me. The enemy's hatred grows for me.

God has shown me his heart  that longs to reveal beauty, worth and the masterpiece in others that he created . To free captives, love the lost, clean up the messy, transform the stuck, break chains of bondage, and fulfil those grasping, striving and searching.

He has shown me and is continuing to show me these truths in my own relationship with him.

This morning he reminded me in a powerful yet gentle way, that it's not going to be easy. I am going to have to fight, be challenged, and need him as I step into full time ministry. The enemy does not want me sharing him with others, and God revealed that so clearly to me this morning.

Please keep me in your prayers, as I have a two week break before going to work as a missionary with Light Patrol. Pray that God will open my ears to what he's speaking to me, opening my eyes to the things he wants to show me. That above all no matter what my faith would be firmly rooted in him and in his truth , and that no matter what I trust in him.

I so appreciate you lifting me up and supporting me in prayer, I am beyond thankful for you all!!

             

Lord you are beautiful, you overwhelm me with the mystery  of who you are.

You are strength, power, and protection.

                           You are wisdom, glory, and honour.
You are big, vast, and complex.

                           You are gentle, tender, and intimate.

You are forgiveness, truth and mercy.

                               You are righteous, good and fair.

You are intriguing.
                              You are with me, you are always present.

You are the God of provision and relationship .

                               You reveal, teach and instruct me.


 You fascinate me in the ways that you work.

Transition

       Hello family and friends. As most of you know, I am finishing up my last week with urban promise. It's crazy to wrap my mind around the fact that I am finishing. These two years have been incredible, these kids and this ministry have become my family. I am so blessed and thankful for all the things God has taught me in my walk with him being here.

I am  both excited and nervous as I prepare to transition to a full time missionary role with youth unlimited. God is teaching me a lot about faith, this is a big step for me. I am looking to him to provide financially for me, a place to live, a place to belong in this ministry and guidance in this new role.

I have created this blog so I can include you in this adventure I am on with God, and the work he is doing through light patrol homeless ministry. I would really appreciate your prayers at this time as I finish with UrbanPromise, and fully commit to Light Patrol.

I am in need of people who can help with my financial support, I am praying God would be leading the people he wants to come alongside me to provide with my financial needs. Monthly supporters are a big prayer for me, as the consistency is nice to count on.

Thank you for taking time to care about me, for many of you I am so far away, and I miss you all dearly. I am so very grateful and blessed by your prayers and interest in my life. Looking for ward to sharing more, and connecting more with you as time goes on.

Love & hugs

Jess

http://lightpatrol.ca/