It's a Battle

" We are passionately loved by the creator of the universe... and Passionately hated by his enemy"


WoW . This is profound and true. I don't think I acknowledge  near enough that I am in a battle. I experienced a very low point yesterday. One of those times when I felt completely weakened by lies, burdened, and unable.

The past few days prior to this, I was experiencing such passion, beauty, wonder and awe. Filled to overflowing from my saviour. confidence in him, trust in him, boldness and excitement in my calling from him, fulfilment in only him. JOY, sunshine, happiness, and passion.

It seemed to happen so quickly. I felt robbed, I wanted to go back, what had changed?  Why was my heart prone to wander from the truth i knew so confidently only a few hours before.  What was going on here? this made no sense? I went to bed last night feeling confused, defeated, weak and weary.

I awoke this morning knowing I needed answers from my father. I sat down with him, and he clearly reminded me. The enemy hates me, despises me. As my father takes me into deeper freedom, as he pours his love on me and that love impacts, changes and transforms me. The enemy's hatred grows for me.

God has shown me his heart  that longs to reveal beauty, worth and the masterpiece in others that he created . To free captives, love the lost, clean up the messy, transform the stuck, break chains of bondage, and fulfil those grasping, striving and searching.

He has shown me and is continuing to show me these truths in my own relationship with him.

This morning he reminded me in a powerful yet gentle way, that it's not going to be easy. I am going to have to fight, be challenged, and need him as I step into full time ministry. The enemy does not want me sharing him with others, and God revealed that so clearly to me this morning.

Please keep me in your prayers, as I have a two week break before going to work as a missionary with Light Patrol. Pray that God will open my ears to what he's speaking to me, opening my eyes to the things he wants to show me. That above all no matter what my faith would be firmly rooted in him and in his truth , and that no matter what I trust in him.

I so appreciate you lifting me up and supporting me in prayer, I am beyond thankful for you all!!